August 19, 2009
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Hungry
I've served at Geon Christian Children's Home for over three and a half years now. I've been there for longer than most of the staff now (many workers have come and gone). My Korean ability has developed to conversational and my relationships with the kids have each grown more with each passing year. There is so much more trust. The first year was super hard simply adjusting. The second year was really hard because I had been in Korea for over a year but I still didn't feel that close with the kids. The third year was better, but there was still a lot of transition. For this fourth year, I feel I'm reaping the rewards of the years of faithfulness and relationship building with the kids. Even disciplining the kids when they are really tough isn't as hard as it once was. Its not all easy and there are still areas to work on, but its so much better now than before. I know by most peoples' standards what I've been doing at the home is a life lived worthy for God. There has been some fruit and it will continue to grow.
But most peoples' standards are not my standards. I see trust and love growing, and for that I rejoice. But I don't see children giving their lives fully to God. I see inner scars gradually being mended for some, but for others with deeper scars I don't see as much healing. I see love covering over the scars, but now and then the wound shows and the child has a really rough time. I believe Jesus died and rose again that these children may have life and have it to the full. I'm blessed to be able to love these kids and help them along the way, but I want to see Jesus truly come and break the chains that still bind them. I pray and ask daily for miracles at the home... for salvation, healing, deliverance, and anointing to be released in the home. Dreams of my own and dreams and prophetic words of others have encouraged me to keep claiming this. I'm hungry for so much more. I don't believe God has sent me to Korea to be content with this. I rejoice and praise God for what has happened, I really do... but I know God wants me to ask and believe for more. I know He wants this of all of us... reveal Your glory Lord!
Habakkuk 3:2 - Lord, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, O Lord. Renew them in our day, in our time make them known; in wrath remember mercy.
Comments (2)
wow.. it will happen. God will honor your heart and your faithfulness.
This is the result likely of one who contemplates the inheritance received from our marriage to the Lord. How will there ever be satisfaction and were we even made for satisfaction upon observation of the day to day manifestations of our obedience to God? Time seems too short, and progress seems too slow from our provincial perspective. To those that are called, truly should there not be a lust to do His will? Know that your perseverance has indeed produced good fruit, whether you are privileged to witness it or not in the lives of the Geon children and all souls affected and transformed by the knowledge of your trust in Christ.
“What shall we do, that we may work the works of God?”
Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He has sent.”